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PROJECT LIBERTINE master post

Thu, 30 Jul 2009 08:23:15 GMT

( official profiles )

( EMBARRASSING NICKNAMES )

( stupid omake crap and gay shit )

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sekrit pet project

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 04:43:09 GMT

REAL NAMES

Cicero
Atticus

ALIASES

Livewire
Atom
Pallas
Fallout
Casio
Torque
Avalon
Parallax
Ajax
Atlas

BIRD NAMES

Thrush
Tanager
Oriole
Finch
Swift
Cardinal
Petrel

( character profiles )

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just one of those days

Mon, 20 Jul 2009 19:56:52 GMT

I hate getting these stupid mood swings. They're few and far between, but when I get them it's annoyingly debilitating.

Though I guess it isn't really a mood swing if it's a culmination of feelings I've been keeping at bay, i.e. inadequacy, incompetence. The job grind remains unsympathetic and unsuccessful, but there's nothing I can do to improve the odds besides keeping at it tenaciously. It's endlessly frustrating, but I admit that my complacency has certainly not been helping the situation, and I'm prepared to try harder.

In other news, with the encouragement of friends I'd decided to keep my okCupid account active, but I just can't bloody stay on that site for more than half an hour at any given time. I've been approached a few times but I've never bothered to follow through or make anything of the chats/message exchanges. Am I too proud for it? Too apprehensive? Too reluctant to step out of my comfort zone? What the hell's my problem? Even with online comms like okCupid I find myself handicapped. Why can't I meet new people like a normal person? I have no interest or ambition that gives me social opportunities, and the thought of participating in any social event where interaction with total strangers is expected (like church) freaks me out. It's like I'd forgotten how to do things on my own. Have I always been this afraid of how others think of me? My whole life's been charmed with things that just happen. I've never had to actively seek out friends; they've always found me. Socially, I've never had to work for anything. The thought of putting myself out there like I'm desperate for something makes me feel idiotic and vulnerable.

Is it possible that I'm simply just... afraid of PEOPLE? How the fuck did I GET like this?

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alternative medicine

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 05:30:14 GMT

Sometime I should make a drug ring/mafia/underworld comic series so that I can make characters codenamed after drugs lol

Snow
Brick
Rock
Mary Jane / M.J.
Speed / Crank / Amp

......and according to Yahoo! Answers, Black Star is a nickname for LSD.

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rp nostalgia

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 01:42:30 GMT

WTF IS THIS

I'm reading my old threads from aubade_daybreak from when I was in polychromatic and homfg the angst.

My excuse is that, well, it's GUNDAM SEED and it's all about the gay and over-the-top angst and overwrought epic cheesy emotional shit

but man did I milk it! My writing makes me BURN IN OCCASIONAL SHAME.

NEVER AGAIN. NO MORE ANGST. CFUD HAS CHANGED ALL THAT THANK YOU CFUD.

The saddest part is that – and I can confess this now 3 years later – I was so busy getting Nicol to chase Athrun's ass and generating BAWWW that in retrospect I didn't spend nearly as much time as I should have with other characters with whom Nicol had potential with. AH HINDSIGHT'S A BITCH.

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MJ Tribute radio playlist

Mon, 29 Jun 2009 18:19:58 GMT

Omg Hold Me by Michael Jackson. I'd forgotten about this song.

/TEARING UP

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music repository

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 03:00:05 GMT

( ONGOING LIST )

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AGENDA

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 02:32:31 GMT

Networking

- update Artician account with graphic design work
- sign up for a Cloroflot account
- update LinkedIn account

Website

- personal art site
- personal GD portfolio site

Grad School

- Digital Media @ Academy of Art SF
- Design Strategy @ CCA
- Mass Communications @ SJSU
- Marketing
- Management

Industries

// international

- travel
- publishing
- gaming
- exhibition/gallery

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food on mind 24/7

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 16:50:11 GMT

I dreamt that I was eating the Black Angus $13.99 bacon-wrapped filet mignon.

I guess I must want it really badly.

Also [ETA] I came into work 5 minutes ago to find my boss ranting and raving about issues/hang-ups with a business partner, about another business partner. He's a pretty mild guy normally so I've never seen him raise his voice or pound the desk. It was kinda scary.

Makes me wonder if I scare people the same way when I'm ranting. XD;

And now even after he hung up it's super tense and awkward in here cuz he's clearly upset and it doesn't help that it's FUCKING FREEZING.

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wham bam thank you ma'am

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 17:52:11 GMT

In conjunction to the Fanime con report post I'd like to just post a quote for posterity (I didn't wanna post it on LJ cuz I felt it'd be indicative that I'm somewhat full of myself; ttly okay to post it here cuz no one knows I'm here anyway)

After recounting my brief cosplay time as Yamcha and my epic Kamehameha-off against 2 girls (which they had requested, btw), this conversation took place:

"Did you win?"

"Hell yeah I did."

"I hope you didn't hurt them."

"No man, I went easy on them. I break girls' hearts, not their bodies."

"............"

I love the stuff that comes out of my mouth sometimes. I really do.

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I like pain

Fri, 29 May 2009 18:39:10 GMT

Lolol planning for future cons already BECAUSE I LIKE TO HURT MYSELF

COSPLAY

- Albert | Cyborg 009
- Nakatsu | HanaKimi
- Koizumi | Lovely Complex
- 0079 Amuro
- CCA Amuro
- Taikoubou | Houshin Engi
- DOGS
- Gan-chan | Yatterman
- TATSUNOKO GROUP? (i.e. Arashi PV) lol oldschool points +9000
- Kanna | Sakura Taisen
- Seiya | Saint Seiya
- Aisha | Outlaw Star
- Leo | Scrapped Princess

italics = scheduled

ANTHOLOGIES

- Young Avengers/Runaways
- Supernatural
- Orichalcum 2

SHIT I HAVE TO READ/WATCH

- FINISH SOUL EATER
- FINISH GUNDAM 00
- Shiki
- 07 Ghost
- Eden of the East
- Waq Waq
- Pandora Hearts
- hey Outlaw Star HOW 'BOUT THAT

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con fatiiiiigue

Wed, 27 May 2009 20:00:05 GMT

back from Fanime and in full post-con zombie mode

this state is not good for work XC can't focuuuus

not to mention browsers aren't cooperating with my CSS AGAIN

RRRRRRRR

god I want nothing more than to go to Kinokuniya and pick up the next volume of Shiki >_> MAYBE I'LL DO THAT TODAY

ahh my wallet *cries*

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TINTED WINDOWS

Wed, 20 May 2009 18:45:30 GMT

WAS ON IDOBI RADIO AAHHH

A song was playing that I've never heard before but the voice was familiar and I checked the title/band and OMGGG IT'S TINTED WINDOWS!

To the uninitiated (and cooler than me i.e. too cool not to be stupidly excited about this) this is Taylor Hanson's side project/collaboration with 3 members from 3 other bands (Fountains of Wayne, Smashing Pumpkins, FCKIN CHEAP TRICK). I've known about this but I haven't heard any of their music til now and NNGGGG IT'S SO GOOOOOOD I am totally going to buy the album when it comes out.

And then I check the band website and find out THEY WERE ON JIMMY FALLON 3 WEEKS AGO FFFFFFFFUCK MY LIFE

And now, as my defensive indignation reared its ugly head (when I told Cindy about this and she said "lolol Hanson", but only as a mild tease) I recall a week ago when at game night at Lisa's and she invited New Guy to join the usual gang, and he was alright for the most part, until when playing Apples to Apples he misheard a prompt as "Hanson", and after correction he said something like, "oh okay, cuz I was thinking, what's synonymous to (somethingsomething maybe a slightly negative adjective) '90's boyband'?". My reflexive reaction was of course "WHAT, HANSON'S NOT A BOYBAND" (the caps lock was only in my head, I didn't actually shout at him, thank god). To which he replied "they were boys, and they were in a band."

And then I was quietly furious with him the rest of the night.

Because CLEARLY, judging by the kind of person he is (and I am going into my Caste-System Bitch Mode here) i.e. Nerdy Geektastic he probably has a negligible scope of knowledge on the great wide boundless world of music (I mean the entire spectrum), he probably has an inherent/socially-conditioned dislike for popular/mainstream music, which means he is at least a little musically ignorant (hey, I'm musically ignorant. At least I know it and admit it and don't go around unknowingly dissing other people's taste in music), biased, and is unaware of the conventional meaning/connotation of "boyband" which is:

"Although there are no distinct traits defining a boy band, one could label a band a 'boy band' for following mainstream music trends, changing their appearances to adapt to new fashion trends, having elaborate dance moves, and performing elaborate shows." - Wikipedia

So that would be to call the Jonas Brothers, The Moffatts, oh and every other instrument-playing teenage all-boys pop/punk/emo/alternative/rock band in high school a boyband.

I imagine all of them would say the same thing: FUCK YOU BUDDY.

(This tl;dr is really just a reactionary lashing-out due to the accumulated irritation from the shit I get from being stigmatized for liking Hanson. GUESS WHAT ASSHOLES, THEY'VE GROWN UP, THEIR MUSIC'S GROWN UP, they've stopped living in the 90s and SO SHOULD YOU.)

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bitches love my new haircut

Mon, 18 May 2009 19:01:57 GMT

I HAVE GERT HAIR AHAHA

by which I mean emo mop bangs + bob. Not a very good bob, since I said to leave as much of the longest parts the same length as possible and the hairdresser couldn't trim very much. I'll get it layered properly after Fanime.

MAN I'M SO READY TO DYE IT PURPLE 'cept I can't cuz it needs to be black for AX

......but if I go to Comic Con. FUFUFUFUFUFU

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CSS is like Calculus.

Fri, 15 May 2009 19:21:59 GMT

I enjoy thinking about it, I enjoy studying the concepts and theories, but I'm slow as hell in application, and when there are problems/mistakes in the formula I don't know how to fix it, and then get frustrated, and flip tables.

LIKE NOW.

Remember the time when you've built about 75% of a whole page on Dreamweaver, with all the structures and elements in the right place, before you test them across browsers and find out that the formatting FAILS?

It's that time. Right now.

The irony is that IE is doing everything right, Firefox is not.

Why can't things on Dreamweaver appear as they would on the browser? THAT WOULD BE REALLY HELPFUL. This is CS4 for fuck's sake. I'm sure by now the developers would've realized the most commonly-used browser is Firefox.

RRRRR /wrangles with the code

ALSO MY TONGUE SORE HURTS LIKE A BITCH ON FIRE. It'd better be gone by Fanime fckingfcksldkfj /takes another ibuprofen

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artses #1 [iron women]

Sat, 09 May 2009 19:42:48 GMT

So, re: the last post about the epic landscape-format art with the background and the extras? IT'S DOOONNNNNE well actually it was done 6-7 hours ago, and I beamed it to Authorman and HOPEFULLY HE WON'T MAKE ME CHANGE ANYTHING @___@

Posting here oughtn't be a problem, since this poster's supposed to be free anyway. I SPENT 10++ HOURS ON A FREE POSTER if I don't learn to put in appropriate effort for proportional pay, I should shoot myself. (Not sure how much I'll be paid for this... for the comic I'm paid a set price per page. This monster is at least 3 pages worth of work .__.)

( 2 detail shots )

PLEASE AUTHORMAN PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME MAKE ANY CHANGES

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like old times

Sat, 09 May 2009 12:47:24 GMT

So guess who's been drawing an 11x17 landscape format poster with an 18th century building and 16 background extras, since about... 11 hours ago?

AHAHA I CAN HEAR THE BIRDS CHIRPING it makes me nostalgic for my college days.

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P-T Development Report #1

Sat, 09 May 2009 01:40:15 GMT

WHAT IS THIS POSTING FREEDOM, I LOVE IT

P-T stands for Prefecture-tans, for the uninitiated.

Today, with co-creator fantaisie we discussed the Prefecture-tans' names.

me:
maybe he can have an english AND jp name
and other people call him a poser idiot for that

aki:
HAHA
YES XD
the english will be his middle name
dick |D

me:
ifaewo;jfa;fihas
i keep thinking that is a name that he will "bestow" osaka

aki:
...
laksjhdfdf
na, dick-kun--
NAN DE YA NEN

me:
A;SFJAS

aki:
OMAE DOU NATTEN YA NEN, OMAE.
sobbb.
*adds Dick to Osaka's nickname*

( MORE DEVELOPER BRAINSTORMING BELOW )

From the looks of things so far DEVELOPER MEETINGS PROMISE TO BE NOTHING SHORT OF AMAZING.

Some notes!

On Tokyo's English Name

He picked out "Wayne" for himself. According to the conversation he has with Osaka it's very likely that he named himself that with Batman/Bruce Wayne in mind. But he wouldn't have settled on that right away. He first went through all the most prominent American superheroes' names. Being the savvy metropolitan he is (half the time), he needed a good, fashionable English name that would appeal to the English-speaking world in general, especially the United States.

Peter Parker >> too nerdy. Thinks "Peter" is too plain, and Parker makes him think of "park ranger".

Clark Kent >> sounds too midwest. And "Kent" read in a Japanese accent might as well be a Japanese name.

Steve Rogers >> again, too plain. Steve McSteve. So boring.

Bruce Wayne >> Bruce sounds old. But Wayne is cool, and John Wayne is way cool.

He also thinks the name would retain most of its coolness in Engrish without ending up sounding silly. He's quite mistaken.

Character References i.e. people (2D/real) I will be modelling these kids after:

Tokyo >> Mikami, Death Note
Chiba >> Aiba Masaki, Arashi
Hokkaido >> Ikuta Toma
Hawaii >> Ito Yuna

I WELCOME SUGGESTIONS IF YOU GOT 'EM

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daily twatter

Fri, 08 May 2009 23:09:21 GMT

- @ work, 4:05pm -

GOD THIS CHAIR HURTS MY ASS

It becomes especially prominent around this time in the day, when I've been on it about 6 hours, and no matter how I shift on my seat the discomfort doesn't diminish.

Am very glad co-worker's hellpooch isn't here today (boss is a v. nice guy who allows his employees to bring their pets) cuz god each time I hear it snarl I get bad, super neurotic mental scenarios with Cujo/Hound of the Baskervilles. Even though hellpooch is some kind of chihuahua mix and is pretty small. Sounds and behaves like it's part mastiff or pit bull though.

THIS IS REALLY LONG FOR A TWATTER POST

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a new low? no, a new HIGH

Fri, 08 May 2009 16:12:31 GMT

I have wonderful friends who have wonderfully strange and fascinating and sometimes perverse ideas. Thank you lluvia and perrito for tangentially enabling me in unexpectedly far-reaching ways. Thank you fantaisie for being my evil, evil, ingenious brain twin.

Welcome to prefecture-tans.

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Runaways Progress Report #2 / distracted AND conceited

Fri, 08 May 2009 03:21:55 GMT

Nothing to say here besides, I finished RunAvengers: Civil War today! Caselli's art was hard to look at initially, but I came to really appreciate it! I-it might even be that he improved over the course of this book lol.

Anyway, the much anticipated crossover! It was GREAT. I love these kids so much, double when they team up.

AHH YOUNG MARVEL WHY ARE YOU SO ADORABLE!!!!

And I could SO ship them cross-teams HARDCORE. Speed/Molly? YEAH? YEAH. (I also love that Nico's into dark-skinned men/leader types now) VISION/CASSIE/VICTOR o shi did you see that? It reads VCV. I do believe this ~~threesome~~ triangle IS MEANT TO BE. Cassie's just such a sweetheart, if I didn't love Vision so much I'd totally ship her with Vic.

God, Vic just... hook up with Chase already. But no, I love Chase loving Gert, I would never change that. OH FAILBOT GET SOME GOOD LOVE DAMMIT

Bah Alex it was all your fault XCCCC

ANYWAY I drew over 2 pages of sketches today on top of reading RA: Civil War. I love them so much! Y'know how on a good drawing day everything just works out and looks GREAT? That was today. I even drew the best Billy and Teddy I've ever drawn. BUT I CANNOT SCAN/COLOR THEM YET because sob I have Fanime AA stuff to finish and if I don't get it done on time Authorman, Coloristman AND Publisherman will have my head.

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well I didn't need that bit of ego anyway

Thu, 07 May 2009 16:32:07 GMT

Met with Roscoe last night at Starbucks (the Authorman. Rare few I've spoken to about my SEKRIT COMIC PROJECT will know who he is). It was generally pleasant! No weird moments, not when they happened anyway, but only when I consider it in retrospect. And then I think again, it's Roscoe. Eh. As long as he doesn't get deliberate/carried away with it, I shouldn't have to put my foot up his ass.

Talked about comics, discussed a lot over what to do at Fanime, plans for more future art after Fanime, website plans, etc. Gave me the alarming news that Chris (Publisherman) really disliked page 3 of our teaser, as well as the not-as-alarming truth that I scared the shit out of him when the art I delivered looked very much not what he hired me to draw (thanks to my stellar creative judgment I decided to ink the art, not actually thinking that the fact they decided to forgo the inker/inking stage had any bearing on my decisions.) Roscoe also gave the sobering confirmation that, yes, the backgrounds I did, little as they were, were kind of wtf. OF NO FAULT THAT WAS MY OWN, OF COURSE. (I had to add them in after all the foreground characters were in place cuz the script he first handed me had NO BACKGROUND DETAIL WHATSOEVER.) But y'know, it just goes to show that I can't pull a hood over how MADE OF SUCK my backgrounds are. I hope to pull the Novice Card for at least the next year.

And, best of all, our parting words:

"But don't be too bothered when I tell you that I don't like your art." (re: inked art)

"Oh no, as long as you're not telling me that you don't like all of it."

"Of course, I wouldn't have hired you if that was the case. Just, don't try to ink anything. Until you've been doing it for at least 2 years."

"Ah, right. *GRIMACE, which thankfully is not visible in the outdoors parking lot at 10:30pm*"

Lol especially great since an hour ago I was telling him that I personally found the inked teasers good-looking, cuz I'm not used to clean art and I'm rather proud of being able to deliver it and I know it's shaky but it's cuz I'm still trying to get used to my brush pen.

LIFE LESSON: when you're feeling good about something, stop. More importantly, never say it out loud.

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inanity GO! also Runaways Progress Report #1

Wed, 06 May 2009 00:29:14 GMT

Lol at this rate I'm gonna start treating this like Twitter.

DREAMWIDTH: A PLACE FOR NAT TO POST INANE SHIT THAT SHE NEEDS TO VERBALIZE EVERY 40 MINUTES

and "Progress Report" is just a fancier term for reactionary flailing.

Have just finished Dead End Kids (#25-30) and, dammit why couldn't they have rehired Michael Ryan for the rest of Season 4? I love his art a LOT. There's a special warm place in my heart for Alphona of course but it's so refreshing to see a style that's a little bolder and more stylized, with heavier inking.

Flipped through YA/Runaways: Civil War and couldn't get through too many pages (well partly cuz whatever I have left of my friend's Runaways stash is running out FAST and I have to make it last) cuz man the writing's weirdly iffy and Caselli's art feels a little like sandpaper in my eyes. HOWEVER I am most pleased that Miyazawa draws YA/RA: Secret Invasion. Even though his art is gravitating further and further into animu territory it's still dynamic and clean and not overwrought.

OH WOW that wasn't even the reason why I'm here. I love how fangirling about a series's canon can calm me down and restore sense in my thought processes.

I was simply here to say, I was sketching a Chase/Gert page (yes a whole page of sketches, and since I sketch big there will be MULTIPLE PAGES!!!!), I couldn't finish the last one before I got off work but their faces are done and Chase's stupid face god I kind of love it a lot is it like super conceited to love your own work to that degree? Cuz sometimes these amazing things come out totally unexpected and I'm like, WOW I'M KIND OF AWESOME

thus I have flown here to a;sdkfj about it, cuz I will not allow myself to touch it again today cuz dammit I have actual comic work to do which is due in THREE DAYS.

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origin tale

Tue, 05 May 2009 06:25:22 GMT

me:
...why is it not easy to decide a new username
bawwtastic? or failboat?
failboat would uh
match your fantaisie?
GAY USERNAME OTP?

aki:
LOL
YES
YESSS
... w-wait failboat?

me:
failboat

aki:
OH.

me:
basically it's a tossup right now between bawwtastic and failbot
...boat
failbutt?
what did you think i was saying? XD

aki:
for a minute I wasn't sure how it worked with fantaisie XD;
f-failbot

me:
t-the "f"
basically

aki:
XDDDD
failbutt cracks me up

me:
HAHA

aki:
I'm immature

me:
flailbutt
wtf why am i spending so much time on this

aki:
it's important!!!
al;kd LOL
flailbutt
omg
take that

me:
HAHAHA OKAY

aki:
it'll make my day just to open your journal every day

me:
LOL

aki:
s-sorry I'm retarded orz
TAKE IT ONLY IF YOU WANT IT

me:
OH I WANT IT

aki:
♥♥♥♥♥♥

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